Last Saturday night

Isn't it

Perhaps uncertainty has accompanied me for too long, what's going to happen next? What's the next step? 

Hardly matters.

Because I still need to move forward withoutI having a bloody clue,

Might as well, live with it in peace, stop being so dramatic, up n down only tortures my spirit n suck my energy out, KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON

Because everything is going to eventually fall into its place, isn't it.

Frown

I don't know why I'm feeling so OUTSIDER.

It's just like feeling so awkwardly uncomfortable like an anti-social person.

I can't even manage to put up a fake smile, nor act as enjoying myself.

I am so tired.

I hate to be at somewhere that there are so many people without many familiar faces.

Whatever I just don't care anymore

I feel foolish to feel bad for him

Srly, I'm just too tired to deal with his non sense anymore

I feel completely exhausted by my work n my own personal on hand issue

Mentally destructive 

When can I ever draw an end to these two things 

When....

WHEEEEEEEEEN

Whom am I kidding

Seriously, who am I trying to lie to?

Myself?

Because I can hardly delude myself anymore. And I just hate to admit it.

In almost every field, I came to realize now and then between sober and wasted, I know by my heart that there is not one single thing I'm satisfied with in my life at the moment, perhaps only the weight loss part I'm happy with, but beside that, my career path, my current work transition process, my love life, my future, and not to mention, my financial status, everything just doesn't seem to be on the right track.

I feel like I'm lost.

The only thing I'm certain of is indulging alcohol no longer makes me happy, no longer an escape of the reality. 

I need the courage and faith to face this bloody ugly yet brutal reality.

Grouchy

I feel extremely grouchy lately

I just don't have patience for absolutely anything 

I'm gonna explode soon

Filthy potato chips

I decided to cut down on alcohol 

Frankly speaking, i had been drinking too much 

Also the potato chips and online stream movie are certainly not too helpful

I'm sure there is better activity to kill the boredom n depression

I need to stay sober to move forward.

Don't care about how, just do it