窒息

不想再活的很窒息

period

energy flow

是個病態

boredom grosses me

wanna go bad

need some entertainment

need some heat

enjoy the wild

better b so wrong to feel right.

devianCe

曾經是
一蹋糊塗的晨昏顛倒
本末倒置的shopping disorder
occassional binge-eating
constantly over-drinking
亂中無序的生活
在不斷的caffeine and nicotine中得以苟延殘喘
黑眼圈have always been my only cosmetic

在昨晚
初次深切感受到overwhelming pressure from
being a normal human being with primary job/school work
feel like "deviance" to me
but the very first time, 頂著黑眼圈中 i feel survived.

what i have been missed....

dream BiG!

......................., the self-confidence

, material of optimism

, the possibilities

, the fulfillments

, and the full power of energy.

Well its not too late

im recharging myself again.

i feel not so alone

Undecided

the handmade bear is still having this lovely smile

sitting on my plain white desk nxt to the picture says "Be Remarkable"

da da da da la da

hit my playlist from iTunes

hope to release the tension, refresh my mind

Maybe it's only been a while but it feels like forever

feeling a bit depressed

Maybe no one can stay optimistic forever

想

想 是 不單純的執著
想 是 自私的慾望
想 是 最赤裸愚昧的naive
想 是 最貪婪的邪惡
想 是 自我創造的必經途徑
想 是 終結忌妒心前其中的步驟之一 是沒有安全感 自卑的
想 是 罪惡感的溫床 比黑暗更黑的角落
想 是 糾纏不清的自我掙扎　

可以找回reckless希望勇氣和熱情來取代無奈的呻吟

準

沒形象 最容易在情人面前失態的星座
作者：艾菲爾

水瓶座
優雅氣質，飲酒作樂就破功

如果你的太陽星座或是水星星座是座水瓶座，要維持形象對你來說可不是一件容易的事情，因為你的罩門就是「朋友聚會、飲酒作樂」，水瓶座是一個非常喜歡交朋友的星座，他們呼朋引伴、飲酒作樂，所表現出來的氣氛就是「開心就好」。他們喜歡高歌歡唱、追酒、勸酒，常常搞得整面失控到不能收拾的地步。所以別以為水瓶座表現出來的「優雅氣質」就是它的本性，他們只要飲酒作樂就破功，所以也常常在情人面前失態。

天蠍座
優雅氣質，一翻舊帳就破功

如果你的太陽星座或是水星星座是座天蠍座，要維持形象對你來說可不是一件容易的事情，因為你的罩門就是「翻舊帳」，天蠍座是一個記憶力超強的星座，尤其是關於情人曾經做過哪些對不起自己的事情，天蠍座對這些事情的經過，簡直是記憶猶新歷歷在目。也許天蠍座平常可以保持優雅氣質和形象，但是只要一吵架或是感情一翻舊帳，他們仇視、憎恨的情緒就會完全的爆發出來，甚至有可能殺紅眼，把情人批評的一文不值。所以別以為天蠍座表現出來的「優雅氣質」就是它的本性，他們只要一翻舊帳就破功，所以也常常在情人面前情緒失態。

Career

havent fully figured what i wanna do as my career yet...
neigher i did come up with a plan
unfortunely it is soon going be my turn to be 25
to be even more specific, within um....two weeks
U know, the whole aging issue is not really bothering me
what freaks me out is the plain fact that i am at the middle of nowhere
and sadly going to be at the critical age of the so called the middle 20s
not early 20s, yet late 20s

i guess my point is that I am not happy about where i am
still in school, but lets dont forget i am about to graduate in half year, for real.
how about after the graduation?
what am i going to do when i am physically old and mentally immature?

However, everything gonna b different in a super positive way!!
i am going to start to make it happen.
Attitude is the key!
i am working on it.
i want myself to be labeled with being Independent and productive from now on.