My Great self-improvements

#1 Taking Subway to school instead of taxi

#2 Able to Be responsible even under the circumstance of having an emotional crisis

e.g. Instead of walking away from the beyond-unpleasant-totally-ugly drama with T last weekend, I managed to enforce myself to sit in front of the computer to finish my school assignments. (Important Notes: i EVEN got an encouraging comment of VERY GOOD for the History paper, yehhhh)

#3 Able to survive without any shopping (Totally amazing)

#4 Walk the dog occasionally (I am not a walking dog type of person, on top of that my dog is really could not be counted in the average dog category, but more like an extraordinarily overlarge size hairy monster. And that makes the situation other way around, He literally walks me.)

God seriously, I am so proud of myself having discipline like a normal human being does.

Ohhh so effortLess

delicious

i dont feel right.

That's probably the reason why i rushed to the liquor store downstairs 3 mins ago.

There is absolutely nothing feels better than the second i tasted the cold yet dry sake in my mouth.

Honestly, not even the very first bite of a so-called pretentious five stars plate could beat that.

so magical that i feel my stress and intense have gone half way

now i can get through the long long night.

sigh

"i guess i can do it."

I had to force myself to swallow the line "I doubt it." and masking a smile along the sentence.

do i Even have a choice? and im sure he could probably already tell that was a false commitment.

But i've already gave out my words

Three months is quite a long time.

but i can do it. EASY!!!!

as long as at the end of this year, i get to go back to my hometown.

three month

well not even three months

i would say two and half months

great, suck it up girl.

UPtown GirL

Wild Child

Bye Bye Darkness

Lost my sleep tonight

but im in an extremely good mood. (It has to be the Fried Rice i just ate)

Havent felt so relieved and air is so clean for a while

Maybe it's coming from the guilty free since i am doing so well on my retail-diet.

hmnnn

feeling so good that i don't wanna fall asleep to spoil the night.

im on a Retail-diet

no need to be any more specifiC.

無所適從

有種無所適從的焦躁感

我不知道 自己要的是什麼

生活日復一日

沒有刺激

沒有快感

是我個性犯賤嗎

no drama feel like no such a thing called alive

我也不知道我想幹嗎

maybe i know, i just try to press it down

gotta b something better than in the middle

only could fancy

but sadly

deny it like anyone else

deny, deny, and deny.

lust, i miss its juicy details.

some kind of therapy, perhaps is all i need.

but deeply

I believe daddy you could cure me completely.

im just being me

i surprisingly found that pretty much every girl around me is

so very productive

despite the fact that im still stuck in the same old school when everyone else is on his/her way to get a second degree.

i guess i am pretty much adopted to the idea of oh-well-everyone-has-a-different-path.

but from time to time

i found it rather toward the self-doubt issue

an overwhelming sense of isolation and a growing suspicion of myself that sometimes eat me up a little,

but at the same time in a mind debating process, it kind of awfully brings myself to some conflicting level of satisfaction like "Oh..I am still a kid, let me be." that kind of immature rebellion thing

Eventually, the self suspicion is still not convincing enough

to encourage myself to make any extra efforts to be reformed

Oh Well, i guess im just being me.

The One with certain UNCERTAIN Behaviors that my closed friends would say, "oh, yeh...that's so C."

with a sigh or laugh.

hmn

Guess these days my emotions are out of the leash

maybe its the hormone.

i was not being considered enough, nor being reasonable

but deep down inside

I guess im just way too insecure and coward

Had tried to avoid the fact that

i was too afraid to be a grown up

Im sorry, darling.

I promise you that i will always be there

to fully support you.

and i will always have faith in you.

I love you.

and im just so blessed that you love me, too.

nerve

i dont know what it is

i just feel that things r getting on my nerve so easily

especially, T.

so annoying

and what i cant stand is that he could always come up w/ something he seriously believes that he is so super noble

Seriously??? another whole guilt-trip-me speech ?

and surely im the one who is such a loser and only gives him nothing but the burden and disaster.

like he has to try so hard to put up with me.

Dont fucking tell me who is the boss

if you really cant stand me, fine.

we can go on our own journeys

Dont tell me that im the one who is neurotic.

you think that im neurotic?

then

I will teach you what is the so-called neurotic, if you want some dramas.

Dont push my buttons.

Or i will show you who is the real bitch.

sometimes

sometimes we just have to be loosen up

Completely

shall we?

two pics from last nite

dont

as liberal as i am

i really dont care what others might think

coz

after all

i only can live once

and there is no second chance in life.

i just wanna live it the way i want

and your opinions?

To be frank, that would be the last thing i consider.

so just shut up

and dont get on my way, would you?

小鴨鴨

看著地上被咬的乾扁小鴨鴨

how could everything seems so dreadful?

maybe all it is is from the pouring rain and grayish sky

the mess on the table

the mess in my mind

not that i wanna escape from anything

Neither i could defeat anything

nothing delights me at this point

feeling...........

lost

is the word.

Inspiring outfits for FaLL

A touch of Retro

favorites

Shop: Ebay, Etsy, Oak, Opening Ceremony, EVA, Barneys New York, Bergdorf Goodman

Eats: Tuna Sashimi Over Rice, Spicy Tuna Roll, Lamb Sag, Crepe

Drinks: Black Coffee, Diet Coke, Dry Sake, Dry White Wine

Restaurants: Sushi of Gari, Soba-ya, Sakagura, Yakitori Totto

Style: Avant Garde, Dark, Edgy, Effortless Casual

Magazines: Zink, Style, Clear, Elle, Harper Bazaar

Novel: Shopaholic Series

TV Show: Sex and The City, Two and a Half Men, Everybody Loves Raymond.

Area: Lower East side, East Village, Soho, Midtown East

My recent Great Buys:)

Delfina Delettrez skull bone hand Silver Bracelet

Arielle de Pinto jagged Silver Bracelet

Eric Saeter Prisme Gold Ring

Eric Saeter Gize Silver Ring

Bijules Rock Silver Ring

Vintage Heavy Double Chains Silver Bracelet

MOMA Skull holding knife Model

Olsen Sisters inspiration Book

hard Core ChiC