traumatized

Instantly
I deeply feel a pity bitterness for myself
i know how bad the outcome of the current situation looks

a completely disaster
no doubt

but cant you please


give me the courage to move forward?

positive=a smily face !!!?

i cant say that there was not a tiny biny doubt about "that"
but, still cant believe this is happening to me AGAIN
like...Woo IS THIS SOME KIND OF JOKE?
in one months, that's right
i know how hideous it sounds, and the most terrifying thing is that
it is ACTUALLY HAPPENING to me
AGAIN!!!!!!!
im not ready for this for sure
but it just start to make me wonder
is this a signal from God?
to let this thing happens to me in such a short time in btw
omg...
it has only been what...less than a month
T was more than positive abt what's coming
i had been nothing but the "cranky mood-swings crazy" woman
and my appetite was huge and endless
surely, my physical changes...
cant believe it
really

i know you too well

"Is that a new necklace you got there?" T said

"Uhhh...no.. i actually got it a yr ago, i got it from Stephanie's" i tried to say it casually with the tone of dont-be-silly

"Nahhh i know you too well, u only keep wearing the NEW ones.. i never seen you kept wearing the old one for this long"

" Dont be ridiculous, im kinda hungry now... Japanese sushi?" I tried to end this discussion as i scrolled down the web page of SeamlessWeb

Sigh, sometimes i wish my significant other doesnt know me this well.