mommy taLK

After speaking to my mom through Facetime, I feel much much better now.

My hysterical temper has been cooled down a lot.

It was the line of " Just 自己過自己的生活" does the magic

Focus on my life, just go for what my heart wants.

Chill Out!!!!!

Stop questioning myself, 爽高調就高調

沒在怕的

剩下兩個月

反正船到橋頭自然直

i got my back-up plan.

Just be happy, and Be the self I wanna be.

alONE

為什麼就不能用豁然開朗的心情來面對 一一一一成不變的生活

或許可以又假裝 把情緒低潮歸咎於 大姨媽

知道不可以放任自己把情緒無限放大

但是全世界 好像只有我在原地踏空

其實我很難過

我只是在默默的 等著那一天

when i am able to let everything go,

no longer thinking about consequences or any scenarios,

just go ahead and start over with my new journey alone.

C @ Work

Wanna

I wanna Get High. I wanna make my life enjoyable. I am going Out.

Losing it

Somehow I feel a rush of jealousy.

I know it's unacceptably Immature

BUT....

it feels like she is trying to replace me..god just like how crazy it sounds, i know it's horrible for me to think it that way

but she is one of the good friends i am very closed to

She already took my best fd down

and now she has to go for her. Great.

I hate it.

Why am I thinking she is stealing my fds

because that just never happened before,

And i am so insecure now and i feel super left out.

Okay, i just feel that Im losing it.

Get over it, C.

Moments of Spring/SUmmer 2011

Current

Freelance Data Entry/PO Merchant Assistant @ Ideeli

This Afternoon

Please give me Three Large Fries, and One Large Diet Coke, thanks.

ransoms

hmnnn

Breezy

i can not believe that this summer is officially over. I feel that I had NOT jumped up and down/ran around/laughed/got drunk/Shopped...ENOUGH under the sun this summer. And it's over already. a What-a-Shame feeling crawled all over me when I breathed the breezy cold air. It was a pretty god damn hard summer for me...Oh well...

Aging

It all happened with a spontaneous line of T's

"Oh wow, I have been living in U.S.A. for 10 Years."

Same here, I thought.

But what really hit me was... the instant yet intense thought of where i am now.

Seriously, what am i doing here? what have i been doing all these years?

I know especially now, when i am not quite setting my foot in anywhere yet.

The fact of doing nothing but staying in the house just drives me nuts.

oh yeh..I really wish i could say yes Doing nothing is quite bloody beautiful, and truly believe the best is yet-to-come

but the fear of "Society says..." has crawling on me all over, I am really trying bloody hard to make it less intense

"It's just a difficult SHORT period of time, people JUST go through it." is what i have been feeding myself ALL these times

3 More months

if i can't nail it, I am out of here.