Breathless

I feel I can't breathe well

What am I feared of?

What I feared was how Wonderful things could turn out so ugly and unfamiliar?

What I saw and what I felt was so unbelievably harmful, why? 

Why now? Why all of the sudden?

What did I do?

Why does he turn out to be like this?

Cold and mean

I don't know if he's the same person I fell in love with anymore. 

I am so tired of wondering

I am so sick of saying any word 

So tired

And awful

Beyond Longlyness, it's disappointing.

Like a trash

That's it

Like a trash

All I saw was his back walking towards outside 

And until his back was completely out of my sight 

I realized I needed to carry my belongings with me to the lift

That's it

Without a good bye.

What do I expect, welcome to the life.

I couldn't help but wonder

What exactly had I done to deserve this?

To be treated like a trash.

I thought I gave it all in, and showed the real me, I thought that's it. This gotta b the happy ending. 

Yeh, That's it. Like that.

Not even enough time or logic for me to figure, and that's it.

At This very moment ,Only my belongings were left right besides me. That's it. 

It's not a happy ending, but an unexpected one. 

So what? YEs what? no what?

不知道
還是很害怕  說不在乎是騙自己的
可是這就是人生
不討人喜歡又怎樣
at least i tried at least thats whom i am
Being naked is never my thing, i mean mentally, surely neither physically
but yeh i tend to protect what i truly love or treasure ever since i was a little kid
it's a if you do then, you do it, if you don't, then f it.

i am scared of judgement because i am a judgemental person
OMG im sick of deny deny deny
living in my own world

Just do it.