Breathless

I feel I can't breathe well

What am I feared of?

What I feared was how Wonderful things could turn out so ugly and unfamiliar?

What I saw and what I felt was so unbelievably harmful, why? 

Why now? Why all of the sudden?

What did I do?

Why does he turn out to be like this?

Cold and mean

I don't know if he's the same person I fell in love with anymore. 

I am so tired of wondering

I am so sick of saying any word 

So tired

And awful

Beyond Longlyness, it's disappointing.

Like a trash

That's it

Like a trash

All I saw was his back walking towards outside 

And until his back was completely out of my sight 

I realized I needed to carry my belongings with me to the lift

That's it

Without a good bye.

What do I expect, welcome to the life.

I couldn't help but wonder

What exactly had I done to deserve this?

To be treated like a trash.

I thought I gave it all in, and showed the real me, I thought that's it. This gotta b the happy ending. 

Yeh, That's it. Like that.

Not even enough time or logic for me to figure, and that's it.

At This very moment ,Only my belongings were left right besides me. That's it. 

It's not a happy ending, but an unexpected one. 

So what? YEs what? no what?

不知道
還是很害怕  說不在乎是騙自己的
可是這就是人生
不討人喜歡又怎樣
at least i tried at least thats whom i am
Being naked is never my thing, i mean mentally, surely neither physically
but yeh i tend to protect what i truly love or treasure ever since i was a little kid
it's a if you do then, you do it, if you don't, then f it.

i am scared of judgement because i am a judgemental person
OMG im sick of deny deny deny
living in my own world

Just do it.

Say no more

I no longer know if I have the strength to deal with it

Or defense myself

Whatever

I don't want to be opened to you anymore. 

Like two strangers who hold their own emotions and feelings back

Depress them but it's always there

I was horrified to hear all that

You know my weakness, I hate it, and you keep doing it.

I'm sorry I'm scared to face you again

At least not for now.

Photoshop project

努力學習

The More I see

If
there is a dramatic time phrase for ppl to outgrow during their life
i would say mine is this year, when im am already bloody 29 years old.



This time, i decided to face/accept all the goods and the bads as peacefully as I could
                       instead of feeding myself with denial denial denial and denial


The truth could be ugly
The game could get tricky
The clutter could be vague




Here you go, Christine
                                           Stay Naive, but be Smart
                                      Stay Harmless, but be Sharp
                  Stay Spontaneously Playful, but Always be Responsible

Start by Starting

When you walk away from a table, make sure you are prepared to walk away from the table

Enough's enough

I'm done 

Was the only line across my mind when the words blurred out 

That's when I found out that what the most important thing in the world

Is not how fancy the title you are entitled to 

Nor is how much money you make

whom you spend it with, every day, is