Breathless

I feel I can't breathe well

What am I feared of?

What I feared was how Wonderful things could turn out so ugly and unfamiliar?

What I saw and what I felt was so unbelievably harmful, why? 

Why now? Why all of the sudden?

What did I do?

Why does he turn out to be like this?

Cold and mean

I don't know if he's the same person I fell in love with anymore. 

I am so tired of wondering

I am so sick of saying any word 

So tired

And awful

Beyond Longlyness, it's disappointing.