Hardly Surprising

I'm sure of it.
sooner i will be quite my usual self again.
What bothers me now is in fact hardly worthwhile to even mention
how silly is that, it really repels me
how awful.

at the meanwhile, she is probably still out there somewhere at the hunting ground
struggling like a desperate spiteful animal
trying to search for a master to feed her empty soul.

how pitiful
to cover herself with full of pretense

I can see the look from her eyes, underneath that smile,
self-consolation is still her only companion.