im just being me

i surprisingly found that pretty much every girl around me is

so very productive

despite the fact that im still stuck in the same old school when everyone else is on his/her way to get a second degree.

i guess i am pretty much adopted to the idea of oh-well-everyone-has-a-different-path.

but from time to time

i found it rather toward the self-doubt issue

an overwhelming sense of isolation and a growing suspicion of myself that sometimes eat me up a little,

but at the same time in a mind debating process, it kind of awfully brings myself to some conflicting level of satisfaction like "Oh..I am still a kid, let me be." that kind of immature rebellion thing

Eventually, the self suspicion is still not convincing enough

to encourage myself to make any extra efforts to be reformed

Oh Well, i guess im just being me.

The One with certain UNCERTAIN Behaviors that my closed friends would say, "oh, yeh...that's so C."

with a sigh or laugh.