nearly forgotten

Suddenly I see ....

OMG......

this is bloody way beyond-my-expectation painful!!!!!!

我的牙齒好痛 幹

不時有股衝動想把嘴裡那該死的東西拔下 沖進馬桶裡

omg....too painful to even fall asleep...

the pain of Not Having IT All

Im frivolous.

My problem is that Im silly BUT NOT rich.

To be honest, Things just gets not too pretty but not entirely ugly this year, 2010.

to go more detailed about the content of 2010, it is not like those stocks which have high-highs or low-lows

it's like...um...i dont know...just constantly staying low in general...

the level of my insecurity and anxiety is just as that size 5 vintage ring hanging on my finger, the size is not too big that would slip right off my finger, but yet not exactly tight enough to bring me proper amount of security and comfort.

Yep that could vaguely describe my year of 2010 so far.

But im not down.

I believe the best is yet to come.

取捨間

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無從選擇

掙扎了半天

still go back to the original

hate my bloody ambivalence.

Joker

覺得甚麼事情都很煩

甚麼都煩死了

一點意義都沒有

活著到底是為了甚麼

I dont know where im going

I got no more games only Joker in my hand.

Coors Light

啊 我也不想當個發牢騷沒用的女人

雖說還是不爭氣的拿了冰箱裡的Coors Light

打從心底的不知道自己要幹什麼

連打開facebook的興趣都沒有

最近也知道無理頭茫然的除了吃 還是吃

埋頭看韓劇的同時 也有投些履歷表們

雖然沒有緊張感 但也漸漸低無奈

雖說抱著 絕對不能在讓自己這樣廢下去和肥下去

哎 真像一個大嬸

沒力啊

only how

candy red nail colors

what annoys me is which ring to slip on my boney finger

Yes, i am still in my mood swing stage

seems like i still couldn't find myself, sort things out

i am still a bit home sick

and paranoid by my current status

i am jobless, and I am freaking 25

the saddest part is, that's only one of the millions reasons that brings me down.

what a mad blue Sunday.

and i cant believe that I feel so relieved by the fact of T is not around.

It sounds so wrong, but feels so damn true.

Well, at least for now.